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jus missed those times, maybe that why im blogging here.

just so afraid of what is soon to happen yet... erm

press this link to view the photos at ubin,crazy times.ENJOY! though there shld be 183 photos but some lazybum only uploaded 48 photos.TSKTSK.

http://evangelyn87.multiply.com/photos/album/1/Pulau_Ubin

so clever of me to use this method.k lar,you are rgt,valerie chua is jus officially feelg LAZY. HAA'

haiz,holidays are coming to an end soon. goin miss all these days. once sch starts,it goin be a hectic life;stressing times all the way till o'level.so during this time if you see valerie plz remind her to breathe.who knw,life may be so hectic and overwhelming that she might forget to breathe once in awhile.TSKtSk~

erm, thnk this will be the last few times i gg blog here cause my beloved AHHUI and AHBULI kpt complaining that here is slow and went to create a blogspot account for ME.so gd of them rgt? YARITE! HA' bt obviously it is nt ready and i m jus too busy. HAA'

oYA, chua yuan xiang is coming bac in 42 hours time.chan,my peaceful days are over. OPPS! HaA' DODO' bluff me sae wat will acc to svc in the end ,IN THE END ?! what 1st wk leave for friends.sO disappointed! did i make you feel bad ? HAA' welcome home btw.

'sometimes when we touch'..nt bad. HAa'

.addicted to you.

will i miss you,or more importantly,will you miss me?

what isit like to be adored? what isit like to be loved? most importantly, what is it like to be understood. a feeling that only few would know. what isit like to get so tired of running after someone, something that bring about nothing?a feeling that only fools would know but ironically many do.

days, weeks, life it seem to be on a repeat mode.same old things,same old problems,same old emotions. typical mood swing. how interesting one life cn get? just glad there still sch and outgs wif family&friends.erm, but somehow, sometimes these seems to be the root of the problems.

there are just times when i wish to be in a room with no doors or windows, just be alone.it may seem to you that it is dumb for there will be no escape.but think again while nth goes out, nth can come in too. nth goes out-i wun lost anything[there is nth for me to lose either,i m alone.remember?] nth comes in- nth can come near me to hurt me or affect me. it is just like being all alone in a stranded island,it is just a way to protect yourself.MAYBE?bt come on,all this is just bullshit.cause it will nvr happen,and it can nvr happen.furthermore, man are make for relationship to interact with one another. However,seriously there are just times when you have to be alone to sort out your thinkgs and emotions.just how often it has to occur.erm...

just because everything is changing doesn't mean it had not been this way before, all you can do is to try to know who your friends are.

friends,who are your friends,what are friends,then again,what does"friends" stands for? i doubt anyone have the answer.[ no worries, i m fine,just a thought frm a song,u believe?! HA']

was so disgusted by your actions yesterday. the insensitivity you had shown.the words you had placed into my mouth.the blame you shoved to me. most importantly the love you had neglected,not from me thou. you wanted__to care,to love,to adore you.but how selfish are you just wanting to take and not give.or they were just excuses you give again to hide the truth?it was a special day for__ and yet the things you done, the things you said, the way you made it happened.what can i say?how disheartened can i get;i was so disappointed.

humph,anxiety is starting to engulf me.what will happen tmr?what will come after that?what will it be like? i'm sorry but i had forgotten how to place my trust in you anymore for the times you did not stood by your words, for the times you chose not to believe me.you told me that you will nt listen to him,you will nt believe him,you will just go to entertain him.but how many times i've heard you saying all these and how many times it actually did happen this way? i just hope this time it would be different for ~ ard. i hope this time you will just believe me and support me.i hope this support,this love,this belief you are giving me,showering me wif,placing in me will nt stop aft tmr. i hope this isn't a fantasy that i'm living in. there are just things that are meant to stay unchanged,things that i wish would nt to change. maybe i shld just leave it up to GOD,nt take things into my own hands for it is beyond my control.also i believe i will nvr forget how to place my trust in GOD for i knw he is always there.PRAISE the LORD, i know i will feel so much better.whooz.

wanting so much for tmr to come yet dreaded it from coming~irony?

still tmr is a day to look forward to as it is thu-a day out wif ah hui,ahbuli ,sam and peien.HA'

.vElAriA. -a name my crappal,nahour gave me.su sae it sound like a SPANISH maid name.wth lor.HA,but it is definitely much better than cai bai chi.geheHE'

.promises, jus another thing to bring up hopes and shatter hearts.

can't take anymore rejections.

.press on at the edge or jump off,simple.

Whooz,crazy dae in sch and outing with sam,ahbuli and ah hui!

looking forward to english lesson!

doing crazy and stupid things again, NOPE don't even dream of me tellg you, i HAVE A REPUTATION ! SO count urself lucky if i tell you or you are part of the crazy acts.HA,look at the videos and photos ba, believe they will do more in tellg you my DAY!

but still had a mixed feelg,yes sylvia i am having my moodswing.HA. you know how tired it is to be sandwiched between two sides so imagine being squeezed by three sides,GOSH i nid to breathe!

hey guys[you jolly well knw you are the one im tokg abt], ARE YOU GUYS THINKG TOO MUCH ? hey, is like tis had be a question deep dwn in your mind.now it is cleared,he said the truth and yet you still have your doubts and wanting him to give you the answer you been thinkg abt. come on lar, some things are just this SIMPLE,don't think too much into stuff. next time if you had already set yur mindset for tis thing don't bother askg the person for an answer cause unless it is the answer you want, you won't believe, SO WHY BOTHER wastg your time and others time askg and pondering?

you knw how hard it is to find a soulmate;bestpal;everlastg friends?some might just go thru life w/o even findg one while some are jus so sad to have ppl ard them robbing them frm this chance. you found yours? i knw he found his and we are jus robbing his chance to keep this friend now. you thinkg tat im navie? what abt our promise to her?  i think we are just being childish not navie, bein selfish not heros.we knw we are jus using her as a excuse,deep dwn it is just tat we are too afraid to lose what we have now, WHAT DO WE HAVE TO LOSe? you knw how hurtful it is to know what hurt we cause him?you knw how much i felt like slapping myself when i knw how stupid i was to think of it in such a way? you feel he is just giving excuse? look at his eyes,look at his and her teary eyes, look into them and tell me if they are lying.i'm not blind neither am i brainless and definately not heartless.THINGS ARE JUST SO SIMPLE.just like GOD, we kept asking if there is a higher power and when he gives us signs and hints we just choose to take it as a concidence.we just don't have the faith in things, there are so many things now that logic can't explain so all we can do is take a leap of FAITH.and follow your heart,i knw it will lead you to the right place.aso i chose to ask them, so i will believe their answers too.just like how i chose to believe in god,follow my heart and take a leap of faith.

so what your take for this thing now? still holdg on to your stand? stop being selfish.

you know sometime we jus get so use to seeg them standing strong from young that we had forgotten that they are still human beings afterall.make of flesh and blood.they have feelings,they too are fragile.they have their times of down too. we thought that he wasn't sad, we thought he had long got over it. but we were wrong,totally thoroughly WRONG. we had no idea what ups and downs they went thru,we had no idea abt their strong bond together, we had no idea what pain he was gg thru then, we totally definately had no idea that he had a harder time going over this thing[ don't forget he still had to hold on;press on;be strong in front of us] and when you knw all these you will knw his love for her is so true, is so SIMPLE. seeing his teary red eyes,his shaking shadow.seeing him cried was such a painful thing,someone you once thought will nvr break dwn was on the verge of breaking dwn AGAIN and is partly an act of yours,how will you feel ? now i just know one thing, i ain't gg to be tat selfish anymore.i am sure of what i hope for and certain of what i do not see.i believe;i have faith, this is my stand and i just hope you will wake up and know what i am saying. we will leave him one day and you had left ,so why rob him frm tis SIMPLE friendship that one desire.futhermore, it is just a FRIEND. and what are friends for in times of needs? what will you do for your dearest friend when she need help the most?

i am not saying just you ,not blamg you for all tis, just as a expression.think is not you then is not you, very SIMPLE.HA'

remember we once talk that when boy and girl get close together it is possible that they are just friends and nothing more? then why are we not applying this thinkg here? ppl lets not be shallow, when a male and a female come together there are lots of possible relationship:FRIENDS,father-daughter,FAMILY etc.sometime when they dun explain is not because they are confessing silently but is because they trust that ppl ain't that shallow and dumb,and noone owe others an explanation other than themselves.

p.s: i m so looking forward to tml PR[project runway?personal rest?public restrooms? NO,is ..principal rally!]whooz!HA'

.serious moodswing,keep out or just slap me to pull me bac,much thanks.HA'.